Our Renaissance Year...gap year between Preschool and Kinder...

We have been having a unique experience so far this school year. I have been staying home with my little ones and adjusting to life in a new part of my state, about an hour plus from family and most friends. I love it here, it's a little more remote than we are used to. We were able to get a great deal on our home, and afford a house, whereas we were living in condos before, which we really outgrew. This location is a great spot, it has good schools---that I have heard about, and a lot more outdoor living than we are used to. I am trying to make the most of that, in a big way. We live on a lake, and the home is a single-level raised ranch, with a garage. We have a wraparound deck which is beautiful, and it's on a wooded street with a gravel drive. We have seen black bears at least one time per month since living here. I've heard the momma lives closeby. It's a mama bear and her two cubs, and her den is a stone's throw away. She doesn't bother anyone, but may occasionally look for your can on trash day, and wander through. I make sure to not let my little one, my preschooler out of sight without me with her. This isn't too hard, so far, as her favorite playmate has always been me, and her dad. My little guy is starting to outpace us though, in this way, and I am so happy for that. Having two under 5 is awesome. She adores him, and is very independent playing and uses her imagination to the fullest. I like having my one on one time with him too. When they play together, which is becoming more and more now that he's a walker, it is the best thing ever. This tims is going so fast! He just started shaking his head no, saying "uh-oh, uh-oh, uh-oh" when he drops something, and his walking is getting better and better each day. Our schedule has become ballet on Tuesdays, homeschooling during the week, during naptime for Little Brother, homeschool co-op group on Fridays with other families that homeschool, and Sunday school at church. We have always had a formal preschool or daycare program for Julia, but this way, Lucas can be involved and play with other kiddos too. It's nice that it's less structured for right now (for his sake,) and I try to make sure Julia gets enough out of it, as well. She is an active, busy kiddo, and it is important she stays connected to her peers, in my opinion. I am excited to have a Christmas concert with the homeschool group and a dance recital, for the very first time. So fun! I know I will be a working mom again, and I am very ok with that, but for now, this plan is working out great for us, and is a lot of fun too. We have also become close with our neighbors, and they also go to Sunday school with us.

My baby is almost one!

I am excited to be writing a post about my little boy turning one! It feels like only weeks ago that I was in labor, trying to be calm, looking to my husband, my nurses and mom and thinking, I just don't think I can do it, and then there he was, perfect and ready for the world. It has been an amazing year, I love his little personality. Lucas, we call him Lukey, for now anyway, is a dream baby. He is a calm happy baby who loves exploring. He is easygoing and loves making new friends. He loves his sister, and she gets the biggest belly laughs from him. He loves his Dada and says Dada clearly and well, for several months now. He says Mama usually when he's sad....mama-mama-mama....I just melt for him. He loves his grandparents and is lucky he has met Daddy's parents that live all the way in Minnesota. (we are in New Jersey). He was Baptized in the Catholic church at almost 10 months old. He started taking his first steps at 11 months, and he is a speed walker, holding onto the walls and furniture for support. He loves being outside, and our doggie, Maggie. He is crazy about his cousins; he has 7 here in New Jersey, and Kelsey, who is 2.5 years old, is the closest in age. She loves him a ton too~!

A newly Stay at Home Mom....

I don't know if anyone else relates, but it is a big life change to become a stay at home Mom. Scratch that. It is a really big life change to become a mom altogether. To gain these two little beings and grow our family is just the best life change I can think of. When you have a baby, in 2013, now 2014, a lot of things in the economy can weigh heavily on the decisions we have to make. I guess what I am saying is, it's a financial tug of war. I am used to being a working mom and having a daycare program that was one I liked and trusted greatly but also, almost constantly made me feel guilty in that my little one was in their care almost 60 hours a week. We were slaves to our routine and bedtimes, baths and schedules. I loved and cherished our time at home together, at night, however, and weekends. That time was so so precious. I was also struggling financially, in that I was in a team of other salespeople (I was in inside sales at an industrial adhesives company) who mostly did not have children. I was the only one who did not have a school aged child in my team, and in the team down the hall in customer service. I think what I discovered was that at my payscale, most people wouldn't pay for full-time daycare at the rate we were making. So even though I was helping my household with finances, I wasn't making as big of a dent as I would like to have been, because of the cost of daycare. So when it came to keeping up with coworkers, with the clothes, lunches, excursions off of campus, it was not something I could partake in, all the way. Mostly, that was ok with me, because I was so happy being a mom and when I had extra time, I wanted to be with my husband and my little girl. I also saw the hustle of people in roles above me, and felt like that world did not appeal to me because of the travel and the stress for the extra, (I'm sure)padding to their salaries. So it wasn't a hard decision for me to walk away from that world when my son entered the picture. I was so thrilled to be a new mom again, and yet, I can't help the new and different guilt that all the financial pressure is put on my husband. So there it is, vent over. I love my babies so much, but I still think like a working mom, when I'm shopping, buying frivolously and I know I have to stop, adjusst and align my thinking to our new vision and support my husband who is working so so hard. I know the work I could be doing is still there, and I can hop back on the trolley at some point. For right now, this does feel right, in so many ways. I think with anything, it just takes time. I am a perfectionist, maybe a little bit, by nature, so what I do, I really want to do well. I am definitely, without a doubt, still a work in progress

Kim Kardashian On The Ellen Show 17/01/2014 Full Interview HD

Kim Kardashian Interview on Ellen, discussing Baby North and Preeclampsia experience