Birth story in GIFS

Hi there, my name is Pam. I just learned how to gif. This is my birth story in GIFs, almost a water birth
I haven't been blogging in a while, since I have a work computer….
My name *really* is Pam, and my coworker actually told me I reminded her of Pam from "The Office". I guess that's a compliment. I'm kind of quiet and shy and usually cheerful….NBD.
Ok on to my birth story…. I am a second time mom. I have a daughter who is now 4 and now a son too….. I love being a mom! I decided to go to a midwife this time, and planned on a hospital birth, in a jacuzzi tub, for the birth
My labor lasted 2 hours and was an intense horrible experience. I had had contractions on and off, no lie, since 22 weeks. They never had to stop them, and they never made me dilate, but there they were. They were real and they sucked. I never actually went into labor. I got to the hospital and the lovely midwife said she would break my water and see what happened. No IV, no pitocin. We would try that approach and see if that would make these contractions kick into high gear. Yup. That's all it took. It went from 0-60 in a hurry. They let me know, there was no time for an epidural. I was 4cm when she broke my water, and I went to 9cm in an hour!!!
They were like you can do this mama. You are a warrior
The instructions from my midwife was "Ok now just push down." The other nurse told me to push towards the ceiling!."What?!"
Every contraction I felt like they needed to reason with me, this was making no sense to me, why they couldn't get me an epidural.
My husband tried to reassure me. He was so sweet but I was so over the top in pain, I couldn't really hear him. He was explaining to me that all through my pregnancy I talked about not getting an epidural, and how this was my plan all along
Fortunately it wasn't much longer that our precious baby Lucas was ready to come by then. He was born after only 20 minutes of pushing
We are talking no IV, no epidural, no meds at all, almost a water birth. OK so it sucked but this is how I felt
He is the light of my life (just like his big sister) ...and is three months old today
He loves his big sister and it has sort of felt like one sleep deprived long wonderful crazy day